I’ve been letting go lately. This pause-button pandemic has given me space and time to re-envision a different way my life could be. This leave-taking of “normalcy” has been therapeutic for me, but not in the way I would’ve expected it.
My introverted self doesn’t really notice a difference in my day-to-day activities. Mostly. I did finally have shoulder surgery three weeks ago after a couple cancellations and reschedulings. I am going to PT twice weekly where everyone is fully vetted (temperature and the usual coronavirus questions) and masked. I wouldn’t feel comfortable going if they weren’t. But for us, not much has changed, at least so far.
Don’t get me wrong: I’m not happy about the unfortunate series of events that got us here. I could do without 350,000+ global deaths, businesses shuttering, and various grocery shortages. This is not an easeful time by any means of the imagination.
But this pause-button time has given me a chance to see things differently. I can not remember a time when my country has been more polarized. And that polarization has trickled down into every facet of our lives. Conspiracy theories abound. Anger erupts on social media and in real life. Science deniers and talk show hosts sow seeds of discord and disbelief. And FFS, masks are a serious source of contention. Who are you if you choose to wear one? Who are you if you refuse? Who decides? Everything has become politicized.
I’m watching to see how people react and, quite honestly, it’s disturbing. I’ve written about this ad nauseam. So I’m not going to elaborate again. I’m sure you have many of your own stories.
What I’m really trying to get at is sometimes the amount of effort and energy you pour into something just isn’t worth it anymore. So I’ve stopped. I don’t feel obligated to anything or anyone that’s not working towards more kindness, more love, more peace, more equality, more justice. I’m not interested in small talk, divisive rhetoric, propaganda, one-sided relationships, hate-mongering, and pettiness.
I. Am. Done.
The poet/philosopher David Whyte says it much better than I can, so I’m going to step down off my soapbox and let him say what I’m trying to.
“You must learn one thing:
the world was made to be free in.
Give up all the other worlds
except the one to which you belong.
Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive
is too small for you.”
One more time:
Anything or anyone that does not bring you alive is too small for you.
And now, although technically not a poet or philosopher (actually, I’m not sure what he is:)), here’s a short clip from Snoop Dogg that made me laugh so hard just at the perfect moment I needed to hear it. Wisdom comes from many different directions and laughter does a body good! Snoop Dogg says let it go.
That’s it for now. Please let me know how you are doing and what’s going on where you are.
*And may all beings everywhere be healthy, safe, happy, and free of suffering.*